I've got some more work to do on this, but I figured I'd show it anyways. =D

Art? I think so. =D

So, a friend of mine is another BBW. Her name is Lexi Di. She has a blog too! Look to the left! She's over there. Her blog is called the Jellie Roll. =)

ANYWAYS.

I was playing with my new tablet and I drew a picture for her. It's Lexie in Burlesque!!

BBW use to be very difficult for me to depict in art. I never ended up liking the imperfections that I saw. I always wanted them to be perfect and skinny, just like I wanted to be. I wasn't comfortable enough in my own fat to not find each roll in my art to be unattractive. But now? While I'm not completely comfortable in my skin yet, I'm learning to love the body I have...(hence my theme, here.)

So more recently, my art has taken a turn for the bigger. =)

I've actually been working on a series of BBW Beauties, so be on the lookout for some of those!

This one is done in color as well. I'll post it right now. =)

Let's start where we need the most work.

The Tummy Project.

I've been following that blog on tumblr for a while now. I love the stories. I love the fact that these people love their bodies. I love the fact that they put it all out there and stand proud, no matter what size they are. Another thing that I love about these stories and pictures is that most of these people started out just like me. They had to LEARN to love what they have. So they gave me some inspiration.

My tummy is my least favorite part of my body, so if I'm going to learn to really love myself, I should probably start getting acquainted with the part of me that I avoid. So! Up in the left hand corner is my tummy. We still don't love each other yet, but we're working on it! I want to eventually have a success story to send into The Tummy Project. I want to be proud of what I have and while I may not always want to flaunt it, I don't want to hate looking in the mirror like I sometimes do.

So here's to the Tummy Project, and here's to a tummy project of my own!

Cheers!

Words to live by.

"Life isn’t about how many people call you and it’s not about who you’ve dated, are dating, or haven’t dated at all. It’s not about grades, money, clothes, or colleges that accept you or not. Life isn’t about if you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, and it’s not about how accepted or unaccepted you are. Life just isn’t about that. But life is about who you love and who you hurt. It’s about how you feel about yourself. It’s about trust, happiness, and compassion. It’s about sticking up for your friends and replacing inner hate with love. Life is about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance, and building confidence. It’s about what you say and what you mean. It’s about seeing people for who they are and not for what they have. Most of all, it’s about living your life to touch someone else’s."

I found that at http://fuckyeahconfidence.tumblr.com .

It's so very true and I try to live by every word. fuckyeahconfidence is a great blog about learning to love yourself! I read it every day!

Isn't it beautiful?

So, I discovered this picture on Tumblr. (Yes. I have a tumblr. If you'd like to know which it is, let me know. =] ) It was on http://voluptuosity.tumblr.com . I love this particular blog because pretty much every post is a GORGEOUS picture of a BBW.

This picture, to me, is SO powerful. I think all big girls should embody this! Keep your head held high and own your body, because it's beautiful.

New rule.

I shan't ignore this place anymore. =)

So I've been doing alot of thinking lately, and I've made a firm decision for the route of this blog.

I've been looking at alot of fat acceptance activism blogs in the recent weeks and I've drawn the conclusion that I'm really not fond of the approach alot of them take. Many of them simply focus on the negatives; how the media tears fat people down, how the industry discriminates against us, how people always judge us. They focus on everything WRONG with the fatisphere instead of what's beautiful and RIGHT with it. So instead of talking about the problems we face and always being in battle mode, this blog is going to take a different direction.

This is going to be a feel-good fat acceptance blog. ANYTHING negative that I post from here on out will have some sort of happy ending. Or a silver lining.

-Khanny <3

I think falling in love with yourself is difficult.

I'm trying to learn to love myself in a healthy way. It's really not easy. I mean... anyone can love them selves to the point where they become self-important and arrogant... But to love yourself in such a way that actually makes you a better person?




Really. Freakin'. Hard.




I mean... I try to wake up each morning and compliment myself when I look in the mirror. I try to think positively about my accomplishments. I try to be confident and assertive... but all of these things are harder than they sound! While trying to do all of these things, I finding 5 negatives for each positive that I can come up with.




I really want to have a healthy relationship with myself. To learn to trust myself and be happy.




I just didn't expect it to be so difficult.




But you know, there're these moments where it all comes together. I look in the mirror and I can see beauty and confidence. Not only do I SEE it, I FEEL it.




Those moments have been rare so far, but they're totally encouraging. In those moments I can feel myself loving.... me. =) And they're worth it. Very much so.




I just have to keep it up.



-Khanny<3